feeling good

Hee Hee, I didn't hurt myself for two weeks liao and oh i feeling proud of myself. Life has not been easy and obstacles always come when i thought things are getting better. Now, I felt confident that if I continue like this, I will be able to fully recover by 35 like what Dr Marcus said. I feel good about myself, feel confident about myself, feel good about school starting, feel good about this world and feel that I want to continue living. Don't know why, the world suddenly feels so good, I feel like doing things for myself for my room and many other little things like washing clothes. I always wear them till I don't have other clothes but now when the clothes are half gone, I will go and wash. I tidy my room a bit and prepares for school. Okay, I am going to watch TV liao.

Cindy

我一定要加油！

艾呀！ 这半年我到底是在干什么。 半年就白白的过了。 一点成就都没有。
我一定要发愤图强， 把自己的身体搞好。要快乐， 要毕业， 要工作， 还要做很
多很多事。
我一定要加油！

开学

哎呀！这么快就开学了。真是的， 都没有玩到。 又是一个忙碌的学期。 为什么不快点五月， 就可以找工作了。

成绩与工做

等待了好久，担心了好久， 成绩终于出来乐。还好都级格。想想还有多一个学期就毕业了，就快要出去工做了， 不知道工做是怎样的， 会不会忙的连休息的时间都没有。好担心会不能乘受工做的压力。可是只有工做了才能独立有能照顾父母。 我一定要加油。 我行的。

cindy

绝对SUPERSTAR

今天去看了绝对SUPERSTAR录影， 是满好玩的。 看到参赛者在台上又唱又跳， 我有在怀疑这表演所带来的除了名还有什么呢？ 看到参赛者的压力，真的值得吗？ 看到观众的兴奋与尖叫， 参赛者的输赢又和他们有什么关系呢？ 我也有吹口哨， 在想张乐声的输赢和我有什么关系呢？ 偶像在一个人的人生到底伴演着什么角色呢？ 看来是得好好的思考。

Cindy

长大

最近想了很多事。不想长大，抗拒长大原来是我的心声。 因为不知道如和面对成张所带来的生活。我原来对童年有遗憾， 一直想回到从前实现我的原望。 没有妈妈陪我聊心事，没有学钢琴， 没有穿我喜欢的那件衣服。 如果父母不是好或坏都说你的不是， 我又会变成怎样呢？如果父母是当你遇到问题时， 会给于意见， 当你被欺付时，会给于安慰，我又会变成怎样呢？

Cindy

wedding dinner

Hee today end FYP early as I had a wedding dinner to attend. Must dress up ah... Cousin getting married. Cool, don noe when is my turn??? sign

Today managed about 1.3kg of fines. Siao liao. I still need abt 14 kg... excluding the other sizes*** I start seeing stars liao.

These two days cos of FYP then very tired so eat very little. hope got lose some weigth

Cindy

a tired day

jus started my fyp today... Oh so tired. spent the whole day jus doing sieveing. MUST work hard to finish fast.

today jus know that can plan timetable liao. wah liao. how come i don noe. fren told me last wk can liao.

Aiyah when is result out. so worried abt it and don wan to be in suspension. Pls come out soon...

but hor must say quite like the result of my today hardwork.

Cindy